Why is it always the guy's fault.
Do we not try to please? Have we not done our part? Will enough never be enough? When will requests ever end? Do we have to give our lives inorder to convince enough that we had done all we could?
Yes i do feel for u, i know u are hurting but has anyone ever feel for me? How about listening to what i want too? it's not about me wanting to do my own things, but rather what that is required for me to do.
Why does everyone have to make me feel so guilty about what i have and need to do? Does relationship trumps all else in life? It's all talks, talks about taking time from here and there, i should do this and that. It's so easy for u to say coz u are not me. Like i say it all talks. Free and Unrestrained, without a thought of consideration.
How many of u have to go thru each day thinking about the household bills to pay, the loans to pay, the next semester's school fees, the unfinished group project due in 2 days time, the exams, approval of leaves for exams, whether i have enough leaves to meet next semester of studies, and i haven't even come to the part about what u have been concerning yourself over.
SO CUT ME SOME GOD DAMN SLACK CAN?
Nobody can do everything, but there are somethings that requires doing more than others. Can no one understand that fact. If u think it's possible, then SHOW ME. Then there will comes the talk of "it's difficult but possible" from somewhere, oh my god... this will never stop.
Yes it's possible, but do u expect so much from me to see me crawl and bleed? people only see what u can give, but no one ever consider the facts of what that has been given, what is there left to give, why it can or cannot be given. Nobody gives a damn...
I dunnoe, maybe everyone is right, i should be more committed to my relationship, since everyone is so keen on giving their advice now and then so often, i say u all should also be there when i fail my exams, u all will fly over to Mel and tell the program director that i should be given my degree because relationship is the most important aspect in singapore, without it, we are nobody.
Or perhaps someone will pay my bills and my loan, tell me "no worries man, it's all on me", or at the very least, will ask me, "u need any help? let me help."
Yes, i know all things can be acomplished, i can sleep less, trade offdays and stuff, yes it can be done, i have went on missions 3 days straight without sleep, with little water and food, pushing all human endurance to the limit, i didn't break, but it did turned me, my body took over, logic made no sense, i had strength that i never possess but it came with bloodlust and violence. It drives me to complete my mission. The perfect killing, fighting soldier. Humans are capable of adapting even when stretched to the extreme, but there is a cost. Something will have to give. Can u afford what u have to give?
This world is hypocritical. Perhaps people are always pointing out other people's faults and mistake in hope it will overshadow their own faults and mistakes.
SO to those outside people's lives please dun say what u would not do if given the same situation. Trust me, u will not want to be in my shoes. I will never demand anyone to do more than what they can do, so why demand so much as me? More importantly, is what u are offering meant to be constructive? If not, it's destrucive or at the very least doesn't change a thing and adds another problem to my whole other lists of problem to think about.
Be kind please if u care enough for me.
Why is the request of a relationship so hard to meet, the trials so insurmountable. I'm now seriously confused. This world is warped and twisted.
Anyway about the bloodlust part, i somehow enjoyed the violence back then, the limitless strength, the ablity to do the near impossible and the feeling of indestructability. I can fall off cliff and not break a single bone, people can get hit by all sort of things and continue missions without pain even with broken bones, no sweat, and the most ultimate of all, i hear a signaler and his group got struck by lighting and not die. They just dust themselves off, pick themselves up and continue on.
People see us as stuff of legends, Sigh... and here i'm, bogged down by matters of the heart. I'm such a disgrace to my outfit man.
Saw my batchmates while reporting for my PVG flight. been such a long time since i last saw them, too bad we are all reporting for different flights though...
Yiling, my exteamie and batchgal, Azim my SNY buddy and batchboy.
Do we not try to please? Have we not done our part? Will enough never be enough? When will requests ever end? Do we have to give our lives inorder to convince enough that we had done all we could?
Yes i do feel for u, i know u are hurting but has anyone ever feel for me? How about listening to what i want too? it's not about me wanting to do my own things, but rather what that is required for me to do.
Why does everyone have to make me feel so guilty about what i have and need to do? Does relationship trumps all else in life? It's all talks, talks about taking time from here and there, i should do this and that. It's so easy for u to say coz u are not me. Like i say it all talks. Free and Unrestrained, without a thought of consideration.
How many of u have to go thru each day thinking about the household bills to pay, the loans to pay, the next semester's school fees, the unfinished group project due in 2 days time, the exams, approval of leaves for exams, whether i have enough leaves to meet next semester of studies, and i haven't even come to the part about what u have been concerning yourself over.
SO CUT ME SOME GOD DAMN SLACK CAN?
Nobody can do everything, but there are somethings that requires doing more than others. Can no one understand that fact. If u think it's possible, then SHOW ME. Then there will comes the talk of "it's difficult but possible" from somewhere, oh my god... this will never stop.
Yes it's possible, but do u expect so much from me to see me crawl and bleed? people only see what u can give, but no one ever consider the facts of what that has been given, what is there left to give, why it can or cannot be given. Nobody gives a damn...
I dunnoe, maybe everyone is right, i should be more committed to my relationship, since everyone is so keen on giving their advice now and then so often, i say u all should also be there when i fail my exams, u all will fly over to Mel and tell the program director that i should be given my degree because relationship is the most important aspect in singapore, without it, we are nobody.
Or perhaps someone will pay my bills and my loan, tell me "no worries man, it's all on me", or at the very least, will ask me, "u need any help? let me help."
Yes, i know all things can be acomplished, i can sleep less, trade offdays and stuff, yes it can be done, i have went on missions 3 days straight without sleep, with little water and food, pushing all human endurance to the limit, i didn't break, but it did turned me, my body took over, logic made no sense, i had strength that i never possess but it came with bloodlust and violence. It drives me to complete my mission. The perfect killing, fighting soldier. Humans are capable of adapting even when stretched to the extreme, but there is a cost. Something will have to give. Can u afford what u have to give?
This world is hypocritical. Perhaps people are always pointing out other people's faults and mistake in hope it will overshadow their own faults and mistakes.
SO to those outside people's lives please dun say what u would not do if given the same situation. Trust me, u will not want to be in my shoes. I will never demand anyone to do more than what they can do, so why demand so much as me? More importantly, is what u are offering meant to be constructive? If not, it's destrucive or at the very least doesn't change a thing and adds another problem to my whole other lists of problem to think about.
Be kind please if u care enough for me.
Why is the request of a relationship so hard to meet, the trials so insurmountable. I'm now seriously confused. This world is warped and twisted.
Anyway about the bloodlust part, i somehow enjoyed the violence back then, the limitless strength, the ablity to do the near impossible and the feeling of indestructability. I can fall off cliff and not break a single bone, people can get hit by all sort of things and continue missions without pain even with broken bones, no sweat, and the most ultimate of all, i hear a signaler and his group got struck by lighting and not die. They just dust themselves off, pick themselves up and continue on.
People see us as stuff of legends, Sigh... and here i'm, bogged down by matters of the heart. I'm such a disgrace to my outfit man.
Saw my batchmates while reporting for my PVG flight. been such a long time since i last saw them, too bad we are all reporting for different flights though...
Yiling, my exteamie and batchgal, Azim my SNY buddy and batchboy.
