Overwhelmed...
oh my god, i've been overwhelmed by my own life. Seriously, i feel lost. I'm burnt, i'm tired, my dwindling spirit needs rejuvenation.
I thot it would never be so difficult.
I believe everything is humanly possible,
but i realised it's only possible when u are in control.
SO far nothing seems to be in control.
Perhap there are things i have control over,
but hardly enough to make a difference.
Exams dates are not out yet,
closing date of leaves is fast approaching.
Group Assignment is barely done.
i've yet to study for my exams.
Fucking roster has so many Standby's that no one wants.
Changing of flights seems nearly impossible as people haggle over offdays, money and flights...
Everybody seems to want it all, all the flights, without all the work and with all the money. In every way they contradict themselves.
Sleeping 4 - 5 hours a night on stretch has taken it's toll on my body,
i'm falling sick, i can't concentrate, i can no longer focus my thoughts.
Work is repeatative, i'm mearly going thru the motion.
Study is near impossible as i try to catch my drifting mind, trying to hold it in place at least till break time.
I sometimes find myself spaced out while driving. I ran a red light once because of that. I was lucky there was no traffic.
I can only hope for the best.
It will be a miricle for me to clear my degree.
To wish for a distinction is nearly impossible...
Yet, dispite all these odds, i do not know why i still struggle on,
holding onto these fragile hope and dreams.
Perhaps it's not these hopes and dreams that is keeping me alive
but rather me keeping my hopes and dreams alive.
I just hope everything would just fall into place.
I'm tired.
oh my god, i've been overwhelmed by my own life. Seriously, i feel lost. I'm burnt, i'm tired, my dwindling spirit needs rejuvenation.
I thot it would never be so difficult.
I believe everything is humanly possible,
but i realised it's only possible when u are in control.
SO far nothing seems to be in control.
Perhap there are things i have control over,
but hardly enough to make a difference.
Exams dates are not out yet,
closing date of leaves is fast approaching.
Group Assignment is barely done.
i've yet to study for my exams.
Fucking roster has so many Standby's that no one wants.
Changing of flights seems nearly impossible as people haggle over offdays, money and flights...
Everybody seems to want it all, all the flights, without all the work and with all the money. In every way they contradict themselves.
Sleeping 4 - 5 hours a night on stretch has taken it's toll on my body,
i'm falling sick, i can't concentrate, i can no longer focus my thoughts.
Work is repeatative, i'm mearly going thru the motion.
Study is near impossible as i try to catch my drifting mind, trying to hold it in place at least till break time.
I sometimes find myself spaced out while driving. I ran a red light once because of that. I was lucky there was no traffic.
I can only hope for the best.
It will be a miricle for me to clear my degree.
To wish for a distinction is nearly impossible...
Yet, dispite all these odds, i do not know why i still struggle on,
holding onto these fragile hope and dreams.
Perhaps it's not these hopes and dreams that is keeping me alive
but rather me keeping my hopes and dreams alive.
I just hope everything would just fall into place.
I'm tired.
