Spring Cleaning, Day 3...
Not much done today except for emptying out my table drawers and repacking all the stationaries. Haha... Yah, my table drawers only got stationaries, pen, pencils, colour pencils, rulers, whatever, u name it it's all there. haha... So now u know, dun ask me where to get pen & paper next time. haha... As for more personal stuffs? hee... They are all hidden in my cupboard. Dun bother searching coz they are all locked up! haha... Ah Foo & Ah Neo still wanna know where i kept my "things" right? haha...
Went out to United Square and Novena Square to get some groceries and modular boxes to pack my stuff into. These modular boxes look neat and save space, very easy to pack and organise. Anyway i spend $60 on groceries today at Cold Storage! Siao right? yah i know... Oh my god... i couldn't believe it when the cashier told me the price! For the first timein my life i rechecked the receipt. Coz i took all the no-frills items and all the 2-or-3-for-cheaper-price items. haha... Oh fuck... must be the Ben & Jerry ice cream and the turkey ham... and... Sushi... haha...
Yah, i had sushi for lunch! Yay!! I Love Sushi!
Anyway i got some files and folders from United Square's Popular too. Haha... Think popular is the most value-for-money stationary shop (provided u got member card... hee...), i got all my files & everything for a surprising $10... Wah... I thot it would come up to $14 plus lor.
The modular boxes are the most troublesome one, tried looking for them at United Square & Novena Square but can't find any, in the end i've to haul all my stuff to the market near my place to get. Wah lan eh... But fortunately manage to get them.
Oh anyway i rented DVDs again... haha... Damn bored lah...
Oh... and ultra good news! The army has paid me my IPPT Gold and Markman money liao... haha... This month got some money to tide me over liao. Although i'd wish this money could get me my Ipod Video or Creative Vision: M. It would be more meaningful like that. But just too bad i'm not working yet, so they can wait... The money has much better uses.
Anyway i got myself the Jacky Cheung "Snow Wolf Lake" Chinese Version CD, i got the cantonese one already, only dun have the chinese one. Hee... MY CANTONESE ONE IS A COLLECTOR'S EDITION LEH!! hee... Anyway think u all dun know this, but i love musical. Haha... Told u all i was cultured liao. haha... U think i ah beng ah? haha... I love this musical, only dun have the chance to go see it! The chinese one was held in Singapore last year. OMG... too bad i missed out liao. The cantonese one was held in Hong Kong when i was like 15? 10 years liao loh...
Want to blame? Blame the god damn NS lah, can't plan anything. Fuckers.
But even if i could go i might not have went. Coz i still remembered 10 years ago i made a promise to myself i would go with my gf to watch. I dun have one now, so no point watching lah. My friends also won't waste this type of money of money on Musical, u're talking about $200 ticket pax. Given this kind of money think alot of them would rather spend on clubbing, opening bottles and treating gals. At least it would give them a higher chance of getting laid...
Speaking of getting laid, U won't believe what some guys talk about when i was in camp, about how they almost laid this gal if not for this or for that... Or for some guy sleeping in the same room. Wah... Look, if cannot fuck, then dun fuck. Dun have to try so hard to make it happen. Anyway it would make the gal look cheap and disrespectful. U won't see a cheap person with me. If u see me with a gal, she's the most respectful person in my heart. Haha... But that another story.
Anyway it's very distasteful to "kiss & tell", but guys will always be guys, to be honest i'm also guilty of leaking out some information sometimes. In a testosterone driven male society, u dun want to appear wimpy dun u? But it's a different story between saying "that girl" and "a girl", especially when everybody knows who "that girl" is. It's puting a face and a name to a subject. Wah fuck... that is down right despicable! "A girl" would be my extend on this subject, at least no one knows who she is. Also it would be minimum details. It would be wrong of anyone to use someone else's dignity to elevate his own male social standing.
Ok, back to "Snow Wolf Lake"...
Haha... But actually there was also another option lah, haha... 10 years ago i knew this gal call Guiling, Haha... She also very into this "Snow Wolf Lake" one, haha... actually she very into Jacky Cheung, haha... Just like me. I said we would go together to watch if it ever come back again. Haha... But that was 10 years back! Besides, i lost contact with her already. haha... I really hope "Snow Wolf Lake" would do one last appearence! I would hope to fulfill this wish of mine even if i've to travel to the other end of the world to watch.
Ok... and now back to my room packing.
Hmmm... Actually not much things left lying around already, think give or take tomorrow i would most probably finish packing my room. Anyway, i went thru some of the stuff that an Ex gf of mine gaved me. I should say those gifts and letters really brings back lots of memories, some happy, some sad and some really regretful feelings. Taking in a deep breath, plucked up some courage, i went thru the letters and gifts, sort them out, and pack them up neatly.
Haha... Silly me, i thot it would saved me some space packing up all the letters and gifts, but actually to begin with, it's already packed neatly, just that now it's more neat! haha...
So any after thots? Hmmm... Just that if given another chance to turn back time to that precise moment, i would have done it differently, it might have made a difference.
Human are like this, when u have everything, u would fail to see what's important, only when u lose everything u would see it clearly. With all your material gains, it actually obscure your view. But must we be striped of everything before our eyes could be made clear again.
Which is why i think i should stay single, i'm tired of this hurting of each other. Becoz twice i've made this mistake, and didn't realised it until it's too late. Ok, i shall be really frank tonight, in 2 period of my life there were 2 gals that truely really loved me, but i never realised it till too late. I shall not elaborate on it let's just say first time it was becoz of pressure from my friends while the 2nd time was from my own pride. I can say what the hell was i thinking back then, but back then i was a different jonathan.
The Jonathan in Secondary school was a super sport jock, a cross country school team captain, while the Jonathan in Poly was a top performing school athelete, a canoeing captain reigning in the medals. With success comes arrogance.
Regrets? Yah... Plenty to regret, but what's done cannot be undone, we can only control what has not happen yet. What has not happen is in the near future a gal would become my girlfriend, so before that happens and i end up breaking her heart, i would rather stay single, so i would not make the same mistake again. The loneliness is much lighter to bear compare to a broken heart. So it's my loneliness to trade for someone's happiness. I say it's a fine trade.
I'm not asking for sympathy, coz i think i deserve much worse. If it meant anything at all, i would like to say i'm sorry, sorry coz it's my fault after all. Well... All of them have boyfriends now. I sincerely wish for them happiness and may their boyfriends be a better man than me. Then i can at least find an excuse to find peace with myself.
Well... Some of u might say it's not my problem any more. But if u have ever loved before, then u would know the feeling of love dun exactly disappear, they linger even after they withered. If u have not felt that way before then u have not yet truely loved. To love is also to care. A little love cares a
lot...
And this is also what i meant by the excess baggage i carry from each relationship. With each relationship, my love, my care and my concerns are further divided among my past relationships. I would still love and care for my ex girlfriends, but it may not be as much. U can't deny that she once meant something to u and to disregard that and treat her like stranger? I just can't do that...
I'm not bastard enough...
Ps: This is one damn long post again. Think most of u would just read till the middle then move on. Haha... No pictures some more, all text. haha... But it's something i wanna get off my chest, it's quite a meaningful post also, compared to all the "what-i-do-today" type of post...
Not much done today except for emptying out my table drawers and repacking all the stationaries. Haha... Yah, my table drawers only got stationaries, pen, pencils, colour pencils, rulers, whatever, u name it it's all there. haha... So now u know, dun ask me where to get pen & paper next time. haha... As for more personal stuffs? hee... They are all hidden in my cupboard. Dun bother searching coz they are all locked up! haha... Ah Foo & Ah Neo still wanna know where i kept my "things" right? haha...
Went out to United Square and Novena Square to get some groceries and modular boxes to pack my stuff into. These modular boxes look neat and save space, very easy to pack and organise. Anyway i spend $60 on groceries today at Cold Storage! Siao right? yah i know... Oh my god... i couldn't believe it when the cashier told me the price! For the first timein my life i rechecked the receipt. Coz i took all the no-frills items and all the 2-or-3-for-cheaper-price items. haha... Oh fuck... must be the Ben & Jerry ice cream and the turkey ham... and... Sushi... haha...
Yah, i had sushi for lunch! Yay!! I Love Sushi!
Anyway i got some files and folders from United Square's Popular too. Haha... Think popular is the most value-for-money stationary shop (provided u got member card... hee...), i got all my files & everything for a surprising $10... Wah... I thot it would come up to $14 plus lor.
The modular boxes are the most troublesome one, tried looking for them at United Square & Novena Square but can't find any, in the end i've to haul all my stuff to the market near my place to get. Wah lan eh... But fortunately manage to get them.
Oh anyway i rented DVDs again... haha... Damn bored lah...
Oh... and ultra good news! The army has paid me my IPPT Gold and Markman money liao... haha... This month got some money to tide me over liao. Although i'd wish this money could get me my Ipod Video or Creative Vision: M. It would be more meaningful like that. But just too bad i'm not working yet, so they can wait... The money has much better uses.
Anyway i got myself the Jacky Cheung "Snow Wolf Lake" Chinese Version CD, i got the cantonese one already, only dun have the chinese one. Hee... MY CANTONESE ONE IS A COLLECTOR'S EDITION LEH!! hee... Anyway think u all dun know this, but i love musical. Haha... Told u all i was cultured liao. haha... U think i ah beng ah? haha... I love this musical, only dun have the chance to go see it! The chinese one was held in Singapore last year. OMG... too bad i missed out liao. The cantonese one was held in Hong Kong when i was like 15? 10 years liao loh...
Want to blame? Blame the god damn NS lah, can't plan anything. Fuckers.
But even if i could go i might not have went. Coz i still remembered 10 years ago i made a promise to myself i would go with my gf to watch. I dun have one now, so no point watching lah. My friends also won't waste this type of money of money on Musical, u're talking about $200 ticket pax. Given this kind of money think alot of them would rather spend on clubbing, opening bottles and treating gals. At least it would give them a higher chance of getting laid...
Speaking of getting laid, U won't believe what some guys talk about when i was in camp, about how they almost laid this gal if not for this or for that... Or for some guy sleeping in the same room. Wah... Look, if cannot fuck, then dun fuck. Dun have to try so hard to make it happen. Anyway it would make the gal look cheap and disrespectful. U won't see a cheap person with me. If u see me with a gal, she's the most respectful person in my heart. Haha... But that another story.
Anyway it's very distasteful to "kiss & tell", but guys will always be guys, to be honest i'm also guilty of leaking out some information sometimes. In a testosterone driven male society, u dun want to appear wimpy dun u? But it's a different story between saying "that girl" and "a girl", especially when everybody knows who "that girl" is. It's puting a face and a name to a subject. Wah fuck... that is down right despicable! "A girl" would be my extend on this subject, at least no one knows who she is. Also it would be minimum details. It would be wrong of anyone to use someone else's dignity to elevate his own male social standing.
Ok, back to "Snow Wolf Lake"...
Haha... But actually there was also another option lah, haha... 10 years ago i knew this gal call Guiling, Haha... She also very into this "Snow Wolf Lake" one, haha... actually she very into Jacky Cheung, haha... Just like me. I said we would go together to watch if it ever come back again. Haha... But that was 10 years back! Besides, i lost contact with her already. haha... I really hope "Snow Wolf Lake" would do one last appearence! I would hope to fulfill this wish of mine even if i've to travel to the other end of the world to watch.
Ok... and now back to my room packing.
Hmmm... Actually not much things left lying around already, think give or take tomorrow i would most probably finish packing my room. Anyway, i went thru some of the stuff that an Ex gf of mine gaved me. I should say those gifts and letters really brings back lots of memories, some happy, some sad and some really regretful feelings. Taking in a deep breath, plucked up some courage, i went thru the letters and gifts, sort them out, and pack them up neatly.
Haha... Silly me, i thot it would saved me some space packing up all the letters and gifts, but actually to begin with, it's already packed neatly, just that now it's more neat! haha...
So any after thots? Hmmm... Just that if given another chance to turn back time to that precise moment, i would have done it differently, it might have made a difference.
Human are like this, when u have everything, u would fail to see what's important, only when u lose everything u would see it clearly. With all your material gains, it actually obscure your view. But must we be striped of everything before our eyes could be made clear again.
Which is why i think i should stay single, i'm tired of this hurting of each other. Becoz twice i've made this mistake, and didn't realised it until it's too late. Ok, i shall be really frank tonight, in 2 period of my life there were 2 gals that truely really loved me, but i never realised it till too late. I shall not elaborate on it let's just say first time it was becoz of pressure from my friends while the 2nd time was from my own pride. I can say what the hell was i thinking back then, but back then i was a different jonathan.
The Jonathan in Secondary school was a super sport jock, a cross country school team captain, while the Jonathan in Poly was a top performing school athelete, a canoeing captain reigning in the medals. With success comes arrogance.
Regrets? Yah... Plenty to regret, but what's done cannot be undone, we can only control what has not happen yet. What has not happen is in the near future a gal would become my girlfriend, so before that happens and i end up breaking her heart, i would rather stay single, so i would not make the same mistake again. The loneliness is much lighter to bear compare to a broken heart. So it's my loneliness to trade for someone's happiness. I say it's a fine trade.
I'm not asking for sympathy, coz i think i deserve much worse. If it meant anything at all, i would like to say i'm sorry, sorry coz it's my fault after all. Well... All of them have boyfriends now. I sincerely wish for them happiness and may their boyfriends be a better man than me. Then i can at least find an excuse to find peace with myself.
Well... Some of u might say it's not my problem any more. But if u have ever loved before, then u would know the feeling of love dun exactly disappear, they linger even after they withered. If u have not felt that way before then u have not yet truely loved. To love is also to care. A little love cares a
lot...
And this is also what i meant by the excess baggage i carry from each relationship. With each relationship, my love, my care and my concerns are further divided among my past relationships. I would still love and care for my ex girlfriends, but it may not be as much. U can't deny that she once meant something to u and to disregard that and treat her like stranger? I just can't do that...
I'm not bastard enough...
Ps: This is one damn long post again. Think most of u would just read till the middle then move on. Haha... No pictures some more, all text. haha... But it's something i wanna get off my chest, it's quite a meaningful post also, compared to all the "what-i-do-today" type of post...
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