Back home once more...
and back to my troubling life.
Wished instead i could go back in time, to the 17th. Wished instead i should have done things differently. Wished that i have not gone to where i shouldn't have went. Or Maybe wished instead i should have told someone of how i really felt and all these might not have happened.
But this is my life, nothing ever seems to go right.
Why do i not have control over my life?
Nobody understands what i'm going through, instead they always say i have a choice. But frankly speaking, a choice is like standing at a cross road with no road sign and your destination is a hundred miles aways. U can't see that far, u do not know where the road will lead u to. U will only know once u reached the end.
U trust your judgement based on experences to navigate thru all the crossroads in life. But every road is different, there's no way of telling what's ahead.
Everybody always view that they have the power to change their fate, but there is always a higher order at work. Humans will never admit that life is beyond your total control and that success is never just your hard work alone. If that is the case people will strike it rich in casinos by just playing everyday.
Anyway u could actually see everyday life in casino, some people luck are just so good, every instant they put their money on those pair of aces, they would appear. But instead of saying it's just luck. they would say things like, "i knew those aces were there..." Yah right, if u really knew, u would be up there playing with the pros. The fact is people will always want to show that they are in control. To pray on good fortune implies u have no control over your life and that is very not Macho.
Like i say before, being humble is not a human trait and the easiest way to emulate oneself is thru the weakness, inability and fault of others. To show off one's own ability is too much hard work.
Sigh...
Life is like a darkness, and me, a burning candle. The more i wanna fill this darkness with light, the faster i burn and sooner or later, i would be nothing but a pile of smouldering wax, with my flame snubbed out from me.
Sorry for the depressing mood lately. i wish i could write something happy instead, unfortuantely that is not to be and if i do not let off some of this pent up frustration in me, it may end up suffocating me instead. SO please do bear with me and pray my troubles will be over soon!
Eh... for those hoping for some travelling stories, i'm sorry to disappoint u all. Hong Kong nightstop can be summerised in just 3 words- supper, dessert and early call time.
U reach the hotel around 10pm, drop your bag, and unless u can be like me, shower, change and wash your uniform in 15mins, u will only have time to change and meet at the lobby. Supper will always be at the crew joint, just round the corner of the hotel and almost half of the menu i've already tried before already. Nevertheless, the porridge there is excellent and always leave me craving for it when i stopover at hongkong.
After that, without fail, it's always dessert.
Anyway Hong Kong still has the best dessert in the world. Best place in Hong Kong to have dessert is Shui Liu San. i had the Bird Nest, Harsmire and Egg White Stew, or something like that lah. It's an old selection but it's still my favourite. Anyway Shui Liu San are famous for their mango selections as well. So give it a try if anyone has a chance to drop by.
Hee... Bee, Jealous or not? Lalalala... hee... Just love the green monster.
and back to my troubling life.
Wished instead i could go back in time, to the 17th. Wished instead i should have done things differently. Wished that i have not gone to where i shouldn't have went. Or Maybe wished instead i should have told someone of how i really felt and all these might not have happened.
But this is my life, nothing ever seems to go right.
Why do i not have control over my life?
Nobody understands what i'm going through, instead they always say i have a choice. But frankly speaking, a choice is like standing at a cross road with no road sign and your destination is a hundred miles aways. U can't see that far, u do not know where the road will lead u to. U will only know once u reached the end.
U trust your judgement based on experences to navigate thru all the crossroads in life. But every road is different, there's no way of telling what's ahead.
Everybody always view that they have the power to change their fate, but there is always a higher order at work. Humans will never admit that life is beyond your total control and that success is never just your hard work alone. If that is the case people will strike it rich in casinos by just playing everyday.
Anyway u could actually see everyday life in casino, some people luck are just so good, every instant they put their money on those pair of aces, they would appear. But instead of saying it's just luck. they would say things like, "i knew those aces were there..." Yah right, if u really knew, u would be up there playing with the pros. The fact is people will always want to show that they are in control. To pray on good fortune implies u have no control over your life and that is very not Macho.
Like i say before, being humble is not a human trait and the easiest way to emulate oneself is thru the weakness, inability and fault of others. To show off one's own ability is too much hard work.
Sigh...
Life is like a darkness, and me, a burning candle. The more i wanna fill this darkness with light, the faster i burn and sooner or later, i would be nothing but a pile of smouldering wax, with my flame snubbed out from me.
Sorry for the depressing mood lately. i wish i could write something happy instead, unfortuantely that is not to be and if i do not let off some of this pent up frustration in me, it may end up suffocating me instead. SO please do bear with me and pray my troubles will be over soon!
Eh... for those hoping for some travelling stories, i'm sorry to disappoint u all. Hong Kong nightstop can be summerised in just 3 words- supper, dessert and early call time.
U reach the hotel around 10pm, drop your bag, and unless u can be like me, shower, change and wash your uniform in 15mins, u will only have time to change and meet at the lobby. Supper will always be at the crew joint, just round the corner of the hotel and almost half of the menu i've already tried before already. Nevertheless, the porridge there is excellent and always leave me craving for it when i stopover at hongkong.
After that, without fail, it's always dessert.
Anyway Hong Kong still has the best dessert in the world. Best place in Hong Kong to have dessert is Shui Liu San. i had the Bird Nest, Harsmire and Egg White Stew, or something like that lah. It's an old selection but it's still my favourite. Anyway Shui Liu San are famous for their mango selections as well. So give it a try if anyone has a chance to drop by.
Hee... Bee, Jealous or not? Lalalala... hee... Just love the green monster.
