Happiness...
happiness cannot be found but comes from within oneself,
and sadness cannot be cast upon by anyone but your ownself.
So does, fear, anxiety, disappointment, anger, hate...
So why do we always choose to feel sad? personally i dunnoe. i could have chose to be happy as it's in my power to do so. Yet i've let negative feelings overcome me countless times.
Is life really miserable and not worth living the remaining days? I've thot of that quite a number of times.
Fankly my life could be said to be an envious one, enriched with plenty of experiences many could only dream of. Yet i've found no joy in the things i do. Where there should have been pride, i found only this feeling of emptiness.
I've tried to be more optimistic, somehow, no matter what i do, i end up wonderng if it's worthwhile doing or not...
haha... feels like midlife crisis... haha...
feeling too worn out, yet too early to quit... haha...
damn what am i to do...
looks like i've got to look for some new magical meaning in life... haha...
Anyway today is term 2 of my jap class. Original class now left with, josilin, me, Low, Nari, Toshi, Steve, Siew Chin. Gone were Raymond, Jes, Fei & Amilia. In their place are now 3 new ladies. haha... too bad, haven't personally got to know them yet... But i think won't be long before they join us for lunch after class... haha... hmmm... i think i should start to get to know them better. Starting with the long legged, indonesian chinese... haha... who wore a very short demin mini skirt to class today! haha... Wah, what a great way to start off term 2! Yay!
LAstly, i think my standard of english is getting from bad to worse! haha...
happiness cannot be found but comes from within oneself,
and sadness cannot be cast upon by anyone but your ownself.
So does, fear, anxiety, disappointment, anger, hate...
So why do we always choose to feel sad? personally i dunnoe. i could have chose to be happy as it's in my power to do so. Yet i've let negative feelings overcome me countless times.
Is life really miserable and not worth living the remaining days? I've thot of that quite a number of times.
Fankly my life could be said to be an envious one, enriched with plenty of experiences many could only dream of. Yet i've found no joy in the things i do. Where there should have been pride, i found only this feeling of emptiness.
I've tried to be more optimistic, somehow, no matter what i do, i end up wonderng if it's worthwhile doing or not...
haha... feels like midlife crisis... haha...
feeling too worn out, yet too early to quit... haha...
damn what am i to do...
looks like i've got to look for some new magical meaning in life... haha...
Anyway today is term 2 of my jap class. Original class now left with, josilin, me, Low, Nari, Toshi, Steve, Siew Chin. Gone were Raymond, Jes, Fei & Amilia. In their place are now 3 new ladies. haha... too bad, haven't personally got to know them yet... But i think won't be long before they join us for lunch after class... haha... hmmm... i think i should start to get to know them better. Starting with the long legged, indonesian chinese... haha... who wore a very short demin mini skirt to class today! haha... Wah, what a great way to start off term 2! Yay!
LAstly, i think my standard of english is getting from bad to worse! haha...
