beneath-e-pale-moonlight: March 2006

Friday, March 31, 2006

What Consitutes to a Good Life?
Er... Ok basically nothing much happened today coz i stayed at home and watch reruns of Alias Season 1 on DVDs, which i've rented over 2 weeks ago and i barely got started. My mind was so occupied with the interview notification email thing that i've got no mood to go watch the DVDs.

So the whole entire day i was trying to finish watching the entire season 1 in less than 12 hours because the date due is today!! Which is impossible task coz the run time for the entire Season 1 is 17 hours. Haha...

Anyhow, i gave up after finishing the 4th disc, as I've got to stop, my eyes are gonna pop out already. Surprisingly watching TV isn't exactly my favourite pass time u know, i spend more time infront of the computer though. But my ultimate love still got to be the sun, the sand and the sea, that's where u would find me most of the time!

Ok, cut the long story short, i gave up, went to the Video store to extend my rental and at the same time borrow some DVD movies to watch, they got a few new titles, just arrived. haha... Anyway becoz i was a regular so they let me extend the Alias free of charge! haha... Great! Hee... but come to think of it, i spend at least $100 there each month, that should be the least they could do for a regular customer right? haha...

While waiting for my bus after renting the DVDs, it gave me some time to think about something.

Ok, Here's a "food for thought" question,

What Consitutes to a Good Life?

Does living in a big house, eating the finest food or working the best job in the world consitutes to a good life? Hmmm... I dun think so...

Would having all the wealth in the world make u happy?

I think not, not if u do not have anyone to share it with.

I believe part of the equation includes family and friends. Ofcoz there is more to make the equation balance. But i believe the scalenow is less tilted on one side.

3/31/2006 09:43:00 PM | Permalink |

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Disappointment...
Why must i always be disappointed, time after time.
Why give me something only to have it taken away in the end.
Why give me hope only to make me despair in the end.
Why give me joy when it's less than a brief moment.
Why tempt me when u have no intention of giving.
Why make me believe when there would be no outcome.
Why let me live only to see my soul dies.

*Sigh* I dun think i can take this anymore.

Why has my life never been smooth sailing? Nor does it ever had a good start or a good ending.

Anyway sorry to disappoint u all too, i missed my Round 3, and not because of me but because the interviewer did not sent the email notification to me. All Round 3 interviews have now cease. Now currently they have all moved on to Round 4.

For most of u guys should know by now what interview i went for. For those who dun, sorry to keep u all in the dark for so long, it was supposed to be a surprise. But unfortunately, seems like now no point keeping it a secret already coz there's nothing left to surprise.

Yes, ladies & gentlemen, i went for the SQ cabin crew interview. I made it all the way to Round 3, but guessed they missed out my name during the administration part. With so many interviewees there bound to be some error during data entry, but guess that 5% error have got to be me. Who else right? Who else can fill this profile of suayness.

Frankly i've already got used to it, I'm used to life fucking me up. This is not the 1st time something stupid like that happened to me, if not i would have been devastated. A good example would be when i was back in school. i would always do very well for tests and just as i thot i would score A's in exams, the results would always come back very disappointing.

My god... think most people would have just go kill themselves...

Do u know how hard is to get it to round 3? My group started round 1 with 10 people, at the end of it only 5 emerged to move onto round 2. Out of the 5 in Round 2, 1 couldn't make it to the interview, while 2 more were eliminated. In the end only 2 made it to round 3. Me and another guy whom we have became friends.

Wow... now only 1 made it to Round 4, all thanks to the person who did not send me the email notification! Luckily the friend of mine made it thru the final round. If not group 89 would be damn pathetic.

Yah u heard me right! Group 89! there were like 200 groups for the 1st interview. Each group consist of 10 person. U do the math.

My only consolation is that the lady asked me to email her my name, IC no. Round 2 date, and she would schedule me for the next recruitment's round 3 which i could carry on from there. Unfortunately she said won't be any time soon! OMG... Have to wait again... But frankly, I hope she would really make those arrangements for me. I would be most grateful.

*Sigh* As for now, i have go find a part time job to tide me over if not i can go eat shit already!

Anyhow, i told Kurt about this and he said it might be a blessing in disguise since the pimples and post acne marks on my face have yet to recover, i could use this time to let my face heal.

Hopefully things would turn out that way.

Thanks everyone for your encouragement and support. If i have another chance, i would do my best! I will make it past all the rounds!

Those i still owe chocolates and treats i will still remember them one, a promise will always be a promise!

3/29/2006 08:37:00 PM | Permalink |

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Hello World, Goodbye Army! ORD Loh!!

Oh yes ladies & gentlemen, i've got my pink IC already and my 11B service status changed to NSman! ahahaha... Frankly, it has been so long since i last saw my pink IC that i've forgotten how it looks like already! haha... But it's great to be a civillian once more. The moment i walked out of Hendon Camp's gates yesterday, i felt like a new man.

Yesterday i was still a military man. But as the clock strikes 12 midnight last night, I'm freed of my bonds and became a free breathing human being! haha...

But the task of collecting the pink IC was a troublesome one. Even till our last day in the army, SAF still wants to make our lives difficult. We were each given a piece of clearance form where we have to give each department to sign and clear us of any outstanding issue (which we have non) and we managed to fill in all the required signatures except for the Ops Spec's, coz he is in thailand! It could not be signed coz he's not around and those that could sign it don't want to take up the responsiblity, while those that sincerely really wanted to help (like Capt Tan) couldn't coz it's not allowed! SAF system is like that screwed up!

These damn people are so concerned about their ATEC that they completely forgotten about us, they never made any arrangement for us, leaving us lost yesterday. We were supposingly asked to come back on thursday to collect everything, that is like 3 days after ORD already and i've never seen anyone after ORD still haven't collect their pink IC except US!! It was a wasted trip to camp but as if like they care.

Haha... then some genius decided to call the SAF hotline and complain, haha... that was the turning point for some of us. At first the S1 brunch seems like they couldn't be bothered with us, haha... but after the call, immediately we were called up to explain the situation and blah... blah... blah... They said whoever needs their pink IC urgently can go and process now, the rest wait for thursday. Haha... Thank u mdn, I WOULD LIKE IT NOW!!

Haha... Unfortunately for majority, they went home already coz they were so fed up of having waited so long yet with no outcome to the situation. Imagine waiting from 9am to 1pm then they tell u thank u for coming! Chee Bye! haha...

While some can't be helped coz they left the required medical FFI form at home. speaking of the FFI form. Nobody told us what to do with the form when we recieved them. We were left to guess what to do with it. Lucky i smart, file it up and leave it in camp! I know those bastards will come out some stunt in the end one. Better be prepare than sorry! haha... Seems like i guess right!

And so me, Foo Ji Kun, Kenn Chng, KunZzzz, SK, Ah Neo, TJW, Sgt Lazy, MS Loi, Mak Zheng Heng and a hand full of others got our pink IC yesterday. But we have to wait to 3pm then we finally get everything processed and handed our Pink IC and our Certificate of Service. Hee... oh... and must thank Ah Foo ingenuity of having our testimonial stamped and approved yesterday so we do not need to come back again to collect our testimonials! haha... Yay! ORD loh!!

ORD- a new beginning, i hope everything will turn out better this time.

I will work hard for my new beginning, but before i could do that, i need a chance for a good start. I hope the start of my civillian life would be a good one!

16 days since Round 2...
WHERE IS THE DAMN EMAIL TO ROUND 3?
This waiting is driving me nuts! Let's hope it'll come really soon! LIKE TODAY!!
Wish me luck dear friends! Lots of Luck!! : )

3/28/2006 08:07:00 AM | Permalink |

Sunday, March 26, 2006

Should Auld Acquaintance Be Forgot
and never brought to mind...
1 more day to ORD loh!

Haha... How time passed. Almost never thought i would see this day coming.

Last January i was complaining how this ORD thing was "so near but yet so far..." So near coz in less than 3 months we are going to ORD already but so damn bloody far coz the each damn day seems to pass so slowly, then there's always the exercise enemy supports we have to do and not to mention the dreaded guard duties.

For the past few months, we have been reduced to the status of an "unwanted child", being pushed around, without anyone to look after us but us ourselves. We have served our purpose last year and now we are made to live the remains of our 2 and a quarter year with no other purpose in life already. Tasked to do menial jobs like cleaning up the company blocks, help JUNIOR COMPANY MOVE CUPBOARDS & BEDS (can u swallow that as a senior best ops company? My god...) and many other pointless stuffs.

We have been reduced from the once Best Operation Company to just some odd job labours. Now the CO is more concern with his new would be heros, the 1, 2, 5 & 6 coys. To help him clinch his best combat unit and save him from probable disgrace of failing to win the 20th best combat unit. But from what i see, haha... hard lah...

These present companies are no fighting machines like us, although i do compliment that they are more well prepared this time with better equipments and more indept ATEC preparation. But still, they are still far from us. We 3 coy may seems lazy but we possess the rage to fight, the hunger to win and the desire to kill ourselves some ATEC scums. Harden warriors thru rigorous trainings and conditioning, we're no soft tofu. Outnumbered & outgunned, we still managed to pry the victory from those fucking ATEC aggressors hands, who only know winning through scheming and devious means. Scums!

But all these would be forgotten, buried under the sands of time. New generations will welcome new heros. What's left would be the fond memories etch in our own mind but would be enough to relish a life time. Not for anyone else but for ourselves. Fuck the BCU, fuck the best ops, in the end all theses are not worth a cent. The treasures we found instead are the friendships and memories we gained during this time.

As of tomolo on, we are free men once more. Pink IC in our hands, on the morning of the 28th, i will see this world in a new light. My world would no longer be as dim. I will leave behind all these but carry with me the friendships and the fond memories i've found!

Hee... and now to make it all complete, let me pass my Rond 3 & Round 4.
Let me live my dreams and let me fly.
WIsh me luck for the upcoming Round 3!

Auld Lang Syne
Should auld acquaintance be forgot
and never brought to mind?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot
and days of auld lang syne?
For auld lang syne, my dear,
for auld lang syne,
we'll take a cup of kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.
Should auld acquaintance be forgot
and never brought to mind?
Should auld acquaintance be forgot
and days of auld lang syne?
And here's a hand, my trusty friend
And gie's a hand o' thine
We'll tak' a cup o' kindness yet
For auld lang syne

3/26/2006 08:01:00 PM | Permalink |

Friday, March 24, 2006

Anyone know when is Round 3?
Er... Today is friday already and i've yet to recieve my notice for Round 3. Hope everything is still alright. Standard waiting time is 2 weeks, 2 weeks is coming to an end now going into the 3rd week already.

This delay is making me a little "jumpy", although this delay may well not be a bad thing, since it give me more time for my face to heal, nevertheless, u cannot help but worry a bit. What more, my sister who went thru the 2nd round with me, cleared her 3rd Round last thursday & is now waiting for the 4th round already. I've still yet to clear Round 3.

Anyway i booked back camp last night coz today there's "something" on in camp. And yah... It so turned out that "something" was just some cohesive activities and a 2.4k run, nothing more. Typical SAF, mobilise u as if like got something big, but always turn out to be over-rated. Waste my time. Lucky by 10am we can book out already. So the day is still not lost yet! Yay...

Haha... But i was surprise i could still run today, i thought my fitness has went down the hill already. Turned out that there's still some juice left in those legs of mine! haha... i could even increase my speed & pace. Think i should still continue to train after i ORD, IPPT Gold is $400 for reservist leh! haha... Extra pocket money, why not? haha...

Speaking of money, my e.mart credit still left $60 plus, but i not intending to let the government take back! I went to buy extra PT shorts (for home wear now) and lots of stuff. Haha... Most of these stuff actually ihave no intention of really using them lah, haha... i just wanna spend finish all the credit. Now my Credit only left $0.04. haha... Dear governmnet u can have your 4 cent back! muahahahaha....

I'm still waiting for my Round 3, hope everything will turn out fine and i could proceed to the next round. Anyway my sister's round had 50 people, but only like 33 made it. Tough eh... My sister was one of the luck 33. Congrets to her!

Alright, continue to wish me luck friends!

Goodnite & rest well!

3/24/2006 10:14:00 PM | Permalink |

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

I'm so Worn out...
But probably more mentally worn out than anything else and couldn't sleep well even if i had the chance to. Recently i went to bed rather early, around 11pm i'm already on my way to slumberland. Unfortunately, i couldn't sleep for long, by 5am i would wake up already. It's like i couldn't put my mind at ease.

It's the round 3 lah, i worried so much for it. Yes, i know i told myself there's nothing much u can do about it until u get your date for Round 3. Speaking of that, my Round 3 date have yet to be announced to me, my sis already have been announced. Her's is tomolo. It has really got me worried sick, when would my Round 3 be?

Seriously, i kept telling myself not to worry, but it's no use, seems like that's like another evil conscious within me, that couldn't stop telling me all those things that could go wrong, playing out the scenarios in my head. Even when i told myself i can make it and not to worry, the nagging conscious is still there, messing with my mind. OMG... mentally tortured by my own evil conscious, dunnoe how long i can keep this up before i crack. Let hope that the good new come soon, that i cleared all the rounds and made it thru!

Anyway recently i spend alot of money. ORD already supposed to be controlling my spending, coz dunnoe when your next pay would come in. But here i am, buying this and that. Yesterday just paid $80 for my light treatment for my face & after that went Sembawang Music Store and got myself the new BoA CD titled "Outgrow". Not bad lah, but not as good as her "Best of Soul" CD. Anyway the CD cost me $21.

Then today went to the philips street temple with my mom & sis to burn some incense as offering & ask for blessings for me & my sister's round 3 and round 4 and... oh what the heck... all the rounds lah. Then we went the guan yin temple at "si beh lor" to pray for blessings as well.

Anyway i think i was really tired already or my mind was already fried by all the negative thots from my evil conscious. I kept mixing up the joss sticks, couldn't plant it properly into the urn and basically just very blur & lost the whole entire day. I really pray our prayers would be answered and i would clear all the rounds.

I did the most unimaginable thing again, I go spend money again. This time round i went Sim Lim Square to buy Battlefield2. Haha... Yah yah... i know, what the fuck right. No money liao still go buy game. Ha ha... but i need some distraction lah. This round 3 thingi is driving me nuts. Need to relax my mind. Beside now alot people in my company mad about BF2 mah, so must well get it so i can join them. I also told chin chun i'll join him in BF2 after i completed Dungeon Seige 2.

Anyway tomolo night must book in again. This is crazy man! i'm still waiting for my Round 3 date to be announced to me thru email. What's worst, go to camp play some stupid team building game. Some society reintegration shit lah, to prepare us for the working world. Haha... Er... It's not us that needs it the most, it the commander level that needs it the most. When ORD already, no body for them to command and shit on. They will have to learn to take plenty of shit now. As for us? haha... we're used to getting shitted on all the time. haha... Army sucks!

5 more days to ORD.

Lets hope my dream will come true! Wish me luck on Round 3 people!

OK, time to log out, i'm seriously burned out. Need to go crash already! Goodnite people! Love ya all!

PS: Please forgive all the grammatical errors, spelling errors or what-so-ever. I'm seriously tired tonight & no time to read thru & check the post. For all i know, for the past 30 mins i've been typing nonsense. Haha... Nite!

Er... And no pictures for today. What pictures are u talking about? There nothing to take... Take picture of myself? U think i self-obsessed ah? haha... To that someone reading my blog, haha... dun be so sensitive lah, not talking about u lah! haha...

3/22/2006 08:48:00 PM | Permalink |

Monday, March 20, 2006

Worried...
i'm so worried for my round 3, one of last week's batch of Round 3s have 75% of them being booted out. What the heck man! It is really that bad? Round 2 had many booted out already, so is like why do they still need to boot out so many people? Still not up to expectation? By any standard, Round 2 was also a killer round. u will see 50% of the people being booted out.

Actually i dun really have much to worry about except for my face. But that's a big problem already. The damn pimples just refuse to go away, even up till now new ones are still popping out. My god... Although i've to say it did got a little better, the big pus filled ones are gone, only left with the small bumps. But there are still the problems of the post acne pigmentations to deal with. Seriously it's giving me plenty of headaches and lots to worry about. I seriously hope & pray my face will heal by the time my round 3 comes around. Anyway beside round 3 there's still the round 4 to worry about. This pimple problem really got to stop!

All these worrying is stressing me out. I really hope i'll get thru all the rounds soon!

Anyway Round 3 will be round the corner this week, so dear friends of mine, please continue to wish me luck! I could use alot at this point of time! Thanks!

3/20/2006 10:39:00 PM | Permalink |

Saturday, March 18, 2006

Bored...
Can't believe i stayed home the entire day. The only time i stepped out of the house was to pick up the 2 lanterns my Ah Gong delievered to my house this afternoon. Eh... not for mooncake fastival lah, but for the temple ones lah. haha... Got some 4D numbers sticked onto it though... haha... Tomolo sunday, maybe i'll go buy those numbers! haha...

Anyway that's besides the point.

I've got to stay home because of the face peel thingi. The face cannot expose to sunlight lah, if not will cause pigmentation. The skin layer is thinner after the peel, so got to watch out for those UV rays. But on the bright side, the pimples all seems to have subside. Now only left with those unsightly post acne marks. My goodness, seriously ah, it looks worst that the pimples itself! Lets hope it would fade enough not to be noticed by the time round 3 arrives.

Anyway it often seems that situation always has a way of presenting itself against me. I never have to worry about pimples for the last few year of my life, then all of a sudden i have this devastating outbreak. To make worst, it couldn't find a better time to come out, it have to come out before i'm about to ORD. When it's a crucial period, where i've to find myself a job and overall appearence is important. Damn...

U know, life often have some interesting ways of fucking you around. It won't kill you, but rather cripple you and see u suffer. The more u try to rise against adversity, the more shit it will throw at u! Till u humble yourself at its feets. Life is one mean bitch! But that's life. Let's hope this time round, as my army phase comes to an end and a new beginning is about to start, life would be more gracious to me and let me stand on my feet again. Let me clear Round 3 & Round 4 would give me a great opportunity to begin a new chapter of my life. I really hope i can pass both Round 3 & Round 4! Wish me luck everyone! Haha... Seems like i need everybodies' luck for this entire month! So, oh please please... wish me luck! hee...

Anyway i spend the rest of the day watching the DVDs i rented last week and yes... i watched them all by myself, quite loserish right? haha... But i happy, it kept me occupied for the entire day. Oh, and i realised something, i've rented all love story movie except for the comical "Kongfu Mahjong 2", haha... Which by the way was damn funny, i would recommand it to anyone who needs a good laugh. But as i was saying, i've rented too many love story movie liao, almost bored me to death. I watched the chinese "Perhaps Love" & the korean "My Boyfriend is Type B".

"Perhaps Love" nearly bored me to death with all the profound interpretation of love but luckily i'm damn free and bothered to watch thru the entire movie and took the time to understand what deeper meaning they were trying to project thru this movie. But like love, it's one damn difficult thing to comprehend. Haha... Definately won't recommand this movie to anyone too busy or too impatient to watch. haha...

"My Boyfriend is Type B" was better. Anyway i'm a blood type B guy, haha... B+ for your information. Anyway i do find some logic in what they say about type B guys, haha... There's this particular thing about being selfish. Er... i would like to correct that, it's self orientated. haha... Yap, but it doesn't mean i never take care of other people. And also the thing about being "pigheaded". haha... yah, oblivious to what's going on around us. haha. But frankly speaking, i'm well aware of what's going on, just that most of the time if it's not important, i'll just pretend nothing has happened. If i've to be bothered about every single thing, i would be one damn stressed person!

But most of all there's this phase in the movie that say's "love is one pleasure and a thousand misery". This is extremely true. The "one pleasure" is happiness but in turn, comes along the sadness, anxiety, heartache, anger, dissappointments, fustration and tears. In actual fact i can't name all the unpleasentness that accompanies love. How much of this unpleasentness are u willing to bear for the sake of love. For me, i do not know that answer, to bear upon that weight once again is something i do not look forward to. Until then, i dun think i can afford to fall in love.

hur hur... sounds pessimistic right? hur hur... To me love is a journey, and both of u are in a car. It's a long and winding journey so u all would take turns to drive, she'll drive when u're tired and u'll drive when she's tired. Hopefully u all could keep driving without the car breaking down. But for me, it has been once too many time that i get dropped off in the middle of the road. Lost and dunnoe which way to go. I've walked miles on my own, braved the cold, the storm, the burning heat of the sun and finally reached a small town, it isn't much, but at least it offer me comfort & protection from the elements. Haha... So if u ask me to step out again and embark on this journey, haha... i dun think so. maybe later but definately not now.

haha... ok so much for all these pessimistic talk. Alright, goodnight ladies & gentlemen, it's time to sleep already. Goodnite & sleep tight everyone!

3/18/2006 11:26:00 PM | Permalink |

Friday, March 17, 2006

$110 Face Peel...
hee... think i really going to become a girl liao lah. haha... OMG... I can't believe i actually spend $110 on a face peel. For those who dunnoe, Face Peel is a process whereby they put some chemical (supposingly some sort of mild acid) on your face and it will remove all the dirt, dead cells and all those grease & grims... haha... Made the face sting like mad though... haha...

Anyway i was supposed to leave it on for like half a day, then just now when i washed the stuff off & ta da... what a surprise, my face felt so smooth! looks smooth too! haha... So happy! For a damn long time i never see the flawless complexion i used to have. haha... although now is not as smooth as in the past, but still, it felt great when u run your fingers over your face without all those bumps. Although i still have all those post acne pigmentation but it's no longer as bad as before already. haha... This is not miracle cure lah, so must give it some time to work its magic. Hopefully just in time before the 3rd Round.

Speaking of 3rd Round, i've yet to get my email informing me of when is the 3rd Round. haha... hope it's not so soon, at least could give my face some time to heal.

Fixing this face of mine really cost me a bomb. I paid all of the treatments with my miserable NSF pay. Up to date i've spend something like $500+ on my face since last month. Wah lan... Can buy one iPod liao lah. haha... But than think about it, once i made it thru all the rounds it will all be worth it. The returns will be 10 folds more. Definately the returns will be more than buying that iPod. So Wish me luck everybody! Thanks Thanks!

Lastly, i've finally finished playing my "Dungeon Siege 2" after playing it for 5 months plus. It's one bloody long game man! My god... So glad i finish the damn game liao. haha... now can move on to other game liao. haha...

But for now, time to go sleep, damn tired liao. Nites!

3/17/2006 10:23:00 PM | Permalink |

Thursday, March 16, 2006

I need a miracle...
Oh man... my face looks terrible, the pimples now look damn swollen like they are gonna explode liao. Seriously i dun really remember when is the last time my face was so terrible. All thanks to the army. Anyway i'm on antibiotics for the pimples, seems to be working fine for a while but now looks like dun have much effect already. I've also switched to more powerful creams. *sigh* only thing can do now is wait. hopefully by next week would be alright already. I've still got the blemish to worry about too! This is not really going too well it seems. Really hope everything will turn out fine by the time Round 3 comes...

Ok, wish me luck everybody!

Haha... Anyway nicole so sweet ah! haha... wished me luck & congratulated me in her blog. haha... So sweet of u! yah lah yah lah... i won't forget the chocolates. haha... U better make sure i get in then! haha...

11 more days to ORD...

Haha... then i would be a free man already! Pink IC! Yay!

But seriously i believe we still need some time after that to pick up all the pieces & continue our lives. The army really does screw things up, our social life really come to a stand still in these 2 years plus.

If not for the army i would not have gotten my pimple outbreak. All thanks to all those enemy support we have to do! i woke up one day during outfield to find a massive pimple outbreak on my face. My god! Yet, they were never grateful for all the things we did & the sacrifice we made. They just convienently said it was our duty. Yah... That's right, 11 days more is what i'll give, dun expect anything else after that.

3/16/2006 09:51:00 AM | Permalink |

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Wooo Hooo... Round 3...
Ladies and Gentleman! I've made round 3! haha... OMG! haha... I'm so happy! But i've to say the pressure is really mounting already! Anyway i would like to thank all those who have showed me support since the very beginning, when i'm still contemplating if i should give it a try or not. Thank you all who have wished me luck!

I was still having the jitters today during round 2, and OMG, the interviewer asked me some questions that u would never thot of. Seriously, no amount of preparation could prepare u for it. If i were to compare, it would be as tough as going for miss singapore pageant. Tell u lor, i was tongue tied for a moment, but luckily i managed to speak and surprisingly i said something she liked. Oh man... That was close! *phew!*

Anyway she commented i spoke well today, in fact better than most of the guys. Oh man... i was stunned for a moment. All i could say was "thanks u ma'm" all the way. Haha... but she said i've got to take care of my complexion if i were to make it thru the last round. Clear all the blemish! BLEMISH? OMG... like how? 2 weeks to round 3, then dunnoe how long to round 4... I'm in need of a miracle. haha... But Miracles to happen right? haha... Me passing my exams back in poly was a miracle. haha...

Oh man all of u all must continue to wish me luck! wish me lots lots more! haha... Thanks guys & gals!

I've to say, it's really stressful going for so many rounds... but once i have made it, it would be worth all those anxious moments, sleepless nights and all those panic attacks... It's not a walk in the park, and even if u made it, it requires alot of perserverance too... coz when u passed round 4, it's where u begin the real journey and u will only see the end 4 months later.. Oh yes... It's that intense... But like i said, once u make it, it's all worth it!

Ok, i got to return back camp tonight. Today is the 12th of march already and we're still being called back. I can't believe this man! Book in on a sunday night some more. U must be crazy. But still... Orders are orders... 15 more days to become a civillian. Just do what ever they want lor. I just wish they could be more understanding. This period of time is very important to us. It's our transition from a soldier to a civillian. Civillian need a job and a life, we have neither yet. haha...

And last of all... Guard duty on the 14th! Wah cheee... I give up on SAF lah and BG is one fat liar...

"March is for u all to clear your leave..." i still remember what u said u big fish ball.

3/12/2006 07:28:00 PM | Permalink |

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Do dreams come true?
i hope it does.
dreams brings out inner desire,
the desire to be more than what u are.

Dreams keep u alive,
to live on,
so u may see better days ahead.
to spur u on,
so u may meet better day.

If dreams come true,
dreams gives hope to other dreams.
If dreams come true,
i would dare to dream once more.
Dreams of wings,
to carry me far beyond,
to rise above desperation,
to be more than what i can be.

May my dreams come true!

20 hrs and 20mins more to D Day H Hour.
Everybody wish me luck! : )

GIve me dreams to make me believe,
Let me believe that i have wing,
Wings to let me fly.
Let me fly so i may rise,
Let me rise against every odd,
So i may see the place my dream come from,
And realise it has come true.

3/11/2006 05:08:00 PM | Permalink |

Friday, March 10, 2006

Show Me the $$MONEY$$...
These Motherfuckers ah... Fuck, i can't believe it! It has been 3 month since i qualified for the IPPT Gold & Marksman Award money. That makes $400... Bloody SAF ah... when they take money they take damn fast, with all the Twelve-o-Six to pay. But when give money, it's like as if we owe them like that. What the fuck!

Seriously lah, has it occur to them that we need money after we ORD? Yah, i know we'll get the money in the end, but the question is when? We'll all be looking for job after we ORD and a day without work is a day without pay. We need every cent we can get, we're no minister sons or daughter u know. It's no point giving me the money later when i'm earning thousand of dollar, when now i dun even have money to buy bread. Sometime i wonder what's in these peoples head, they can never get their perspective right. Seriously lah, i dun think they even had a brain, maybe donated for medical studies, to see how dumb a person can get.

I think being a government official is a tough job, u have to work with radiation and microwaves right? i heard radiation destroys the brain cells and microwave cooks the brain, hence would soon become dumb and stupid like tellitubbies... Oh fuck... i hate those tellitubbies, Make me just wanna nuke them to kingdom come!

Seriously lah... Pay me soon lah... Or i'm gonna starve to death. My pay this month? $750... My god... i've spent $150 today. $100 on prepaid video rentals and the $50 on everyday uses stuff. I'll go broke pretty soon! I Really Really Really hope my Round 2 makes it. Or rather make it for all the Rounds. Coz that would solve half the problem liao. Oh please let me make it!

The anticipation & anxiety of waiting for this Round 2 really stressed me out mentally. But got to hold myself together lah. Focus my thoughts and think of what i'm going to say this sunday. It's D Day, do or die liao. Must give 100% liao, no more holding back! Sometimes i really wish i have someone which i could confide in, talk to and give me morale support. I'm really losing steam already! haha... But then again. haha... i dun think such a person exist. If i decide to find one i may have to search my entire life.

Alright, so much for tonight, i'm really tired so it's time to sleep... Goodnight.

A gift from Jiahui! - A silver luggage tag!
"May ur wishes come true..."

I certainly hope it will and i really like the gift! lots of thanks to Jiahui! Thanks x 1000!
Now become like a good luck cham to me liao. haha...
If i really become what i hope to be, i'll always attach this to my bag or luggage! ^_^

3/10/2006 10:04:00 PM | Permalink |

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Scared Shitless Part II
Oh dammit... This Round 1, Round 2 Round 3 Thingi is killing me. Wah lan... now stress is really mounting! First there was round 1, the anxiety on that day almost broke me to pieces. Now this sunday is Round 2 and maybe a Round 3. Wah... Really ah... I'll be glad when it all ends, and ofcoz i make it too lah! But guaranteed, it will not be "a walk in the park".

*Sigh...* i really wish for success. I would like the option of choose than to be choosed... I really want to have the chance to try what i like than to be kicked around and accept whatever fate is given to me. I want to pave my own future, not walk whichever path presented to me.

Trust
Trust is Having Faith...
Having Faith is to blinding believe...
To blindly believe is not to see with your eyes but listen with your heart...

To trust is to close your eyes and hold out your hand,
be lead thru mountains & valleys,
narrow ridges & raging rivers,
without having to open your eyes,
nor having to worry...

Trust is to believe.

3/09/2006 09:57:00 PM | Permalink |

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

What's Wrong With These People...
"ORD already, so are u going to further your studies? NUS? NTU?..."
Recently I've been getting lots of these questions from my neighbours and relatives...

KNNBCCB U lah... Ch** B**... i dun have 20As to go local U lah fuck! haha... Thank u for thinking so highly of me. I only got 1 A and lots of Bs & Cs... To go uni from poly u've to make it to the top 10 percentile... That means every semester i've to score at least 4 As while the rest have to be Bs and no Cs!

haha... I have to be a nerd and most probably a virgin to do that... Even if i'm top 10 percentile, i dun have the money lah, u think i crazy ah? sell house, sell car & sell my backside to pay for school fees ah? One of my ralatives actually took a loan from the bank to pay for my cousin's uni fee... Wah... fuck... he better study hard. If not he fail he can go kill himself liao. Even so, he must work his ass off in the future for like dunnoe how many years to pay off the debt. There would be no savings left for them. Poor parents so old liao can't even think of retiring... My God... If i like that i also stressed...

Is Uni that important? Er... wait... for my JC & Uni Friends u all better dun read this and go back study... Before your parents come after me with an axe! haha...

Yah as i was saying, why must we die die go Uni? Even so, why must it be NUS or NTU and not other Uni or Foreign Uni? Really that important meh? Beside able to how lian to all the ralatives i dun see it serve any greater function. Going for job interview with a degree doesn't ensure u get employed immediately, u still got to see if u can sell yourself or not? and ofcoz... see if your employer like your face or not. Getting a degree doesn't mean u get paid higer as well, some poly grads earn higher than uni grads...

Once, i overheard one of my past tution teacher on the phone compaining about how come they pay him, a unigrad the same pay as a poly deploma holder? Why not? we may not hold a degree but we're trained to specialise in certain field, and we're trained to start work immediately with minimum job training. So why not? Not fair ah? haha... go poly lor... haha... Anyway that's why some poly student can skip 1 sememster in uni and go onto 2nd sememster. We have learn all the fundamentals liao lah... haha... But why would i want to do that? Got 1 more semester to fuck around... hahaha... why not? Besides... having more As on my transcript looks good doesn't it...

Dun get me wrong, i have nothing against uni students, i have plenty of great Uni friends as well as friends going Uni. Just that i dun understand the mindset of people. Some People love to use education to impose a double standard on others.

I've a friend that felt being looked lowly upon during a recent meeting with her bf's ralatives. Poor gal being asked which Uni she come from, what job she do... actually i dun think it's the question they ask, but how they ask... They are not interested in what u do, but whether u meet their standards or not. Wah lan... Nothing wrong with being poly grad right? Anyway i better dun say any more before she scold me idiot boy! haha...

Anyway poly grads are not the only victims of double standards. I believe SIM, SMU and many of the other local and foreign Uni grads also feel the same way. Worst, some even view NTU as second grade as compared to NUS... OMG... what the fuck happened to our countryman?

Scenes from someone's upcoming Chinese New Year Gathering...

~~Dumb~~ Ralative Auntie: "So... u just grad from Uni?"

Uni ~~nerd~~ Grad: "Yap!"

~~Dumb~~ Ralative Auntie: "Wow Wow... That's great... NUS? er... NTU...?"

Uni ~~nerd~~ Grad: "Er... nope... SMU, First class honours in..."

Before the Uni ~~nerd~~, i mean Grad, can finish the dumb auntie cut in, with the dunnoe what-the-fuck-i'm-talking-about face, she proclaims:

~~Dumb~~ Ralative Auntie: " oh is it?! U know Ah boy boy? he just grad NUS with 3rd class honours in dunnoe what lah... So smart right?!"

Uni ~~nerd~~ Grad, mumbling under his breath: "Fuck u lah auntie...!"

~~Dumb~~ Ralative Auntie: "Huh? did u say something?"

Uni ~~nerd~~ Grad: "Hur Hur... No Auntie... Wow... Ah boy boy is so smart, NUS leh..." *puke*

~~Dumb~~ Ralative Auntie: " Are u ok? how come u want to puke? are u sick?"

Uni ~~nerd~~ Grad: "It's ok Auntie, think i ~~heard~~, i mean ate something indigestable just now!"

~~Dumb~~ Ralative Auntie: "oh... Ai yo... must take care ok boy...!"

~~Dumb~~ Ralative Auntie: "So after SMU got chance go NUS or not? Anyway where is your SMU ah? Study what one ah?"

Uni ~~nerd~~ Grad: "Chee Bye...!!"

~~Dumb~~ Ralative Auntie: "Huh? What's that u say? i didn't catch that..."

Uni ~~nerd~~ Grad: "Oh nothing... Auntie U want to have some Chee ~~Bye~~ Pa Mian?"

========================= The End ===========================
*Note: Uni grad is no longer uni nerd coz he laid 2 girls at once on his last birthday & became a national hero. As for the "dumb" in the auntie, haha... we must always respect our elders no matter how stupid they may be. haha...
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haha... typical aunties right? haha...

I believe education and knowledge should be used to equip oneself to meet the demands of the world and serve a greater cause than just merely using it to show off. Having a degree is like having an MG (machine gun for those who dunnoe), it can be useful and deadly, but it is also a heavy burden to bare. If u know how to use it, it's a powerful weapon, but use it wrongly it will put u in more danger. It's all depends on the person who wields it!

Compare to a MG, the humble rifle may seems weak in contrast to the MG but if the rifleman hones his skill, he could take the MG gunner out with one shot as compare to the MG gunner who have to fire off many round just to hit his target.

The weapon is in your hands, but its effectiveness depends on how u use it...

PS: Hey Jason Ong u going SMU right? hahaha... Hope u dun have any NUS cousins... haha... ok lah ok lah just kidding! All the best for your studies ah!

All the best to my army buddies going to the Uni, wish u all good results and lots of babes! haha... Mission Objective: ~~Kill~~ Laid them all! muahahahaha...
Take Care Guys ^_^

3/08/2006 07:54:00 AM | Permalink |

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Yay!! FULL House!!
haha... Finally finished my Full House Serial liao! Just in time to return the Video store tomolo! Argh... i watch until my eyeballs gonna popped out already lah. From 9am this morning watch till 7pm this evening! Oh my god... Feel just like doing night shift watchman in camp like that. haha... But it was enjoyable lah, not to say the least. Though... the story was a bit the draggy... Then the 2 main characters seemed like can never stop running into trouble. haha...

Actually the plot very simple lah... Boy meets gal, boy finds gal very irritating. gal find boy idoitic. They both got together becoz of curcumstances and continue to bicker & hate each other but somewhere along the way, their hearts moved & saw something in each other. Then they get dumber & reject their own feelings and each other becoz of pride and 3rd parties. Finally... They have the courage to come to terms with their own feelings & finally got together! Yay!

Simple plot right, but with lots of complicated feelings thrown in. lots of uncertainty, insecurity & irrational thinking. But isn't life like that. It's always a simple matter but we often thot too much & spun things out of proportion. We fear dissappointment so we always anticipate, hoping to react before something bad happens. But we human tend to overanticipate hence over-react. Like a game of tennis, beside anticipating, u must also watch where the ball is going before we can react. Our over-anticiaption & over-reaction cause us to run all about on the tennis court even before the ball is being served... First, making us look like a fool, second, we might even miss the damn ball as well. Standing still might well be a better option.

As for me? haha... I just ignore my own feeling, deny its existance. haha... Guarantee not complicated coz there's non to start with. i've decided to shut love out. Love gives the energy to powerful feeling. Love can bring u to heaven or bring u to the depths of hell. For me... i'll rather stay on a earth, beside i'll live longer.

But love is like a demon, rising from the fiery depths of hell, Its fury is hard to contain, like a volcano, laying dorment, waiting, unspecting until one day it erupts without warning, unleasing it's anger & distruction, consuming everything in its river of flames. From it's ashes nurtures life, but yet its cost and destruction are insurmountable.

How long can we subdue this demon, i dunnoe, but plenty of brave souls have fought & lost. How long can i fight it i do not know, it may well be a losing battle. For my soul is battered & my resolute is wavering. How long before this demon will consumes me i do not know. But as long as air still fills my lungs i'll fight... "DIE U MOTHERFUCKER!!"

But if i fall, hold me and the rest of mankind in your prayers, for mankind days are numbered. Love, the demon has risen, its hands has corrupted the hearts of man. Turning man against man, bringing forth deceit, hatred, jelousy and our own demise. For love, we have brought about our own destruction.

3/07/2006 07:37:00 PM | Permalink |

Monday, March 06, 2006

10 Hours Straight of Full House!!
Yawn... i can't take it any more! i got to go sleep liao. Anyway i'm halfway thru the series liao, finish 12 disc, 12 more to go. But got to give some credit lah. Really not bad, able to captivate me, just make me wanna continue disc after disc. Haha... If not i wouldn't have watched 10 hrs straight. But really, the story does reflects some real life issues about love and some i could even relate. Nice show nice show.

Anyway yesterday I went Suntec after canoeing training & there was an army /airforce /navy job exhibition. haha... i see already i wanna laugh. haha... At one particular booth got this SAR 21 that had this new "inovative" attachment that allows u too see around corners. So called "Great for FIBUA"... haha... but like the rest of SAF... Crap!

Anyhow, i ask some normal question about the functions, and this particular loser lieutenant actually had the cheek to say the weapon need no zeroing, it's factory zeroed. For those who dunnoe, all weapon need to zero, in simple terms, to match your aim to where your bullet will hit. Without zeroing u might well not shoot at all, the bullet will never meet its target.

haha... i looked at him and his "full-of-shit" SAR21 badge... haha... i nearly flipped. haha... Either he never fired a weapon in his loserish life or he still has the OCS effect... the "Still-in-denial-about-life" & the "i-am-O-so-great-officer" effect. I heard OCS has the best brainwahing machine in the country. Lucky the effect is not permentant on many, most would wear off after they ORD. But some just too bad lah... They degraded to become losers for the rest of their miserable officer life. Going around saying things like, "is that the way u talk to an officer?"

haha... Er... yah... That would be the way if i want to suck your cock. Unfortunately that's a no for me and the rest of the world. Anyway the way he look at me he must be thinking, "who's this infanty fuck, got more zai than me meh?" haha... my ignorant country man... take a look at my uniform. I got more badges than u... Thai wing, airborne wing, COMMANDO "nine-one-four" IPPT gold, markmans... haha... Anyway as a Lientenant... having a SAR21 badge on u is really a joke lah, u look like a man carry a baby's rattle, shaking it, so fond and proud of it while i drive around in my sports car stealing your gal... haha... LOSERS!! haha...

Anyway i went away smiling, shaking my head... Coz these losers have no idea what they are talking about. FUck... for all i know, dun think they even go outfield. haha... uniform so clean... Want to look at my No.4? haha... look like some war veteran.

Beside that, still got some display of Uuarmed Combat... haha... The fat grading tester was there too... haha... then the SOF bring along their fancy MP5 and other weapons. haha... Those visitors hold the weapon until so happy, the kids thot army really supply such weapons to regular units. haha... Wake up lah idiots... U this life won't get to even touch such weapon unless u join SOF lah... haha... PTW (Parachute Training Wing) was there too... but seems like no one interested in parachutes. haha... Poor PTW fellas... Burn weekends! haha...

Yawn... Wah lan... Really tired liao... got to go sleep liao lah...

Night! I'm going to go crash on my bed already!

3/06/2006 10:46:00 PM | Permalink |

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Disaster!!
oh my god, i crashed my K1 today. haha... ok not exactly crashed it, i ran over some underwater construction during training today. It scratch the hull from the bow to right under the cockpit. Shit... the underwater construction was hidden in the water and i was rowing too fast to stop anyway. By the time i notice the construction it was too late, i was over it already. the hull couldn't clear the construction. Damn... but lucky i stopped if not the rudder would have snap off too. Wait, i not just stopped i ejected as well... FUCk... no choice, if not the damage would be worst.

Damn dragonboaters passed by & didn't even help. laugh at me some more.

But ok lah, i admit, it was my fault, i was chatting with jiaying and we were rowing side by side, she was also rowing K1. I was wasn't watching the water and just so happens the construction was on my side. SO... i went head on while jiaying missed it by a bit. Anyway i think she's light enough lah, her boat would have been floating higher in the water and she would have cleared the constructions anyway.

Haha... but ok lah, we assessed the damage and it wasn't so bad lah. but still got some deep scratches. haha... jiaying even help me come up with an excuse say we were concentrating too much on our strokes & never noticed the underwater constructions! haha... But in the end, i went up i still help to recoat the wax on the boat, hoping it would fill the scratches so it won't look so bad.

Anyway i was surpised me and jiaying had a decent conversation, think we had not had a real chat for dunnoe how long already. haha... but mainly talk about conoeing & stuff and i learnt something. the club is actually divided. The Poloist & Sprinters are having conflict with each other and the club has pick up enemies as well... The other Clubs... oh shit... what happened to the good old time man. After i left. Thing really have changed... In pursuit of success & medals, they forgot the purpose of training as a club... Last time, polo and sprinters train together and we have respect for each other. The real takeaway was the friendship and the good times. The medals are just by products.

But guess u couldn't blame them. For a school which only look for results, u can blame the for the unfriendly competition among their own people. With limited fund per club, u are asking then to fight for it. Worst still when u have a lousy student advicer who's just a puppet. Who's only goal in life is to be a puppet, listen, work, get pay & go home. Dun really care if it's right or wrong. U're a student advicer. U're supposted to make a difference to the students life not make it worst! Think he forgot how i fuck him last time already. Maybe i should go back to fuck him and remind him again. I just love it when i was the captain last time. I in big so i can always talk big!

Haha... anyway i found my Bracsa IV already. It got mixed up with cher's one and he ended selling my paddle to CJC. haha... ok lah, now i got it back already! Think i'll just contribute to NP. Coz think i'm going to buy aother paddle already! haha...

3/05/2006 11:06:00 PM | Permalink |

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Oh My! 1 Week Without any Post.
hur hur... sorry guys been pretty busy lately. Left me rather tired to do anything else after camp. Maybe it's becoz of ORD, so lots of outprocessing to settle, got to de-kit all my equipments and plenty of nitty gritties... Not to forget, plenty of guard duties to serve. Those motherfuckers wanna squeeze us dry! Why can't we just ORD in peace. Seriously lah, something is wrong lah. Why so many guard duty for an ORD company. As if there's nothing better for them to do is it? My god... I serve 1 guard duty last tuesday and i'll be serving one tomolo and what the hell, i'm on leave! My issue is not about how many guard duty i've to serve but about the high number of guard duties for an ORD company.

Personally i think my CSM is both ball-less and stupid. Ball-less because he never stood up for us. I mean... come on lah, i'm an easy-going type of person, i dun compain much. But there's a limit. Yesterday was bad. Yesterday was off day for everyone and yet he asked everyone back camp to clean weapon. He wants them CARBON FREE! Although i was doing guard duty from tuesday to wednesday morning and didn't "suffer" the loss of a off day, i was still pissed. I mean, Wah lan eh... Are u mad... as if we have nothing better to do is it? If we were a "poly-batch" company, all hell would have broke loose on earth. Stupid becoz he really dunnoe how to make his men happy nor does he know how to make his superiors happy, coz he always take up those mediocre but troublesome job for the company to do. Men pissed like fuck coz waste their precious time, while his superior are not really impressed.

Fuck u lah... carbon free? U putting up the weapon for display ah? Frankly the SAR21 is a piece of crap iron. Too many flaws already. Way to go man ST Technologies. What the fuck were u thinking when u design this weapon. Cost saving only ah? Personally think u all should go to poly first before u all decide to become engineers. Yah, u all have knowledge but u all lack common sense. Things like securing the LAD with 1 screw on a weapon that vibrates like a jackhammer, how the fuck am i going to aim at night with a loose LAD and your LAD is so visible at night in the misty jungle that every fucker know your position. Worst still, make almost all parts of the weapon secured together, if u can't take them apart, how the fuck the soldiers gonna clean his weapon thoroughly? U have more groves and hard to reach places than a woman's... ahem... U get what i mean... Dumb fucks leh...

I suggest more field test before commissioning a new weapon lah. Anyway now going to no more M16 drill already. They going to convert to the "Oh-so-proudly-made" Singapore Crap 21, Ops... i mean SAR 21 drill. Frankly the drill looks ugly like fuck. Personally i think there are only a few things Singapore did right, first was the Ports of Singapore then SIA, and then NEW water. The rest can go to the crap collection of singapore liao. KaoZ... They make it until like the SAR 21 is like our national flower like that.

Personally lah, in SAF, there are plenty of things to be pissed about. Things like wednesday morning i went to do my medical FFI after my guard duty. The medic actually told me to wait till afternoon to do something that only require 1 minute. Fuck u lah... i waited 2 hours already, now u ask me wait till afternoon? Anyway we pressured the medic until they "bua ta han" finally allow us to see the Medical Officer first. And what u know, 40secs and we're out!

I've plenty of things to do, and it's serious work, so dun make me waste my time. All these idiots think that we ORD personnels are very free. But like civilian, civilians also have important things to do.

Hai... Recently also got that "something important" to worry about, now going round 2, the pressure is really mounting. I really pray i make it! Hope really can make it through all the rounds. I wish my sister luck too lah, she also going round 2. But seems like she's handling it better than me though... Let's hope both of us make it then everybody can enjoy life liao.

Ok lah... I think i owe u guys some pictures... Very long never post any pics liao...

..:: My ORD Parade ::..

::: Uncle, Me (in my ultra Shuai & Teh neh neh Uniform), my sis and my mom. :::

::: Jason Ong, Me & Fong... Friends for Life! :::
[[ Hee hee... Fong! Have fun ah in Thailand ATEC 06, Kill us some ATEC Scums... ]]

::: My mom, me and Sis again... Teh neh neh ah! All my badges! i just so-love-myself! :::

::: Pic on Left: Me and Victor Ang. See u out in the world Victor! :::
::: Pic on the Right: Me and RuiXiang. Haha... See u, i'm going first, u have fun! haha! :::

::: Pic on Left: me and Sgt Lazy. Hee... although u may wear a "scum" wing, u are still my friend! hahaha... ok ok... dun beat me! "frodo frodo, sam wants to beat smegal" haha... :::
::: Pic on Right: me and Joseph. My Detachment commander, my Comrade and my Friend! :::

::: Chris Toh & me. Yes Yes... i know u all sure got alot of things to say... :::
[[ FYI: Chris Toh is one of NACC canoe polo gal's cousin. ]]

::: me and Chin Chun. My medic, took care of me in brunei when i had fever, took care of me when i had dengue fever in singapore and took care of the stupid medical center medic who can't shoot for fuck, keep missing my vein. haha... Chin chin is "one shot one kill", haha... i'll let him IV me or shoot a needle up my ass anytime. haha... :::

::: Men of the ex-platoon 7, Oldest of the lot... Wisest of them all... :::

AND.... TA DA!!!

::: Presenting Silver from Project Superstar!! Yay!! All u guys are losers! haha... :::

haha... TOLD u guys to hang around liao...
Anyway... Where's that Ah Foo ah? so eager to go home leh...
See lah never take picture with u!

..:: NACC AGM ::..

::: The alumni of Ngee Ann Canoeing Club, the pioneers of the best. :::

3/02/2006 04:28:00 PM | Permalink |

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