Oh my god!! i'm so dead tired!!
i dunnoe why but i feel complete drained & worn out today, even though there was nothing to do. Just some minor ATEC stage 1 brief & some preparation for the christmas celebration. I had to say something about our ex OC, Cpt Jeremy Lee, so i've got some writing to do in the afternoon. Either than that, i just slept the whole afternoon away, from 1 to 3... could hardly peal myself off the bed! Woke up cursing & swearing all the way to the ATEC brief!
By the way, who the fuck put my name for the ATEC stage 1! C C B...! I'm supposed to be clearing my leave next week, i still have COS duty next week! Plus one ATEC stage 1 now, i won't be able to clear this year's leave. So what if u return me as off-days next year? If it's already so hard to go on leave, how much more do u think my chances of going for off-days are? Thank u all so much!
Maybe why i'm so drained & so pissed might be the fact that i've just returned from a 4 days outfield as 3rd Coy Enemy Admin party together with Foo JiKun, Ah Neo & Kenn Chng. One hell of a job, organise stores, collect stores, distribute stores, pack & distribute breakfast, lunch, dinner. Some more have to be some "K+something" enemy reserve on wheels. Fucking can't even get a peaceful night sleep! OMG... i going to collapse on my table now! Thankfully today got Damien to drive us out of camp to Bedok MRT station & Kenn Chng to share cab with me & jason ong from there to harbourfront NEL station. Jason ong then accompany me all the way on the train back home. Hee... lucky he had to pick up something from my place if not i think i'll have problem keeping awake.
So thank u guys for making it possible that i dun have to spend the night in camp, or worst... at a bus stop somewhere... haha...
On the way back i had a serious guy to guy talk with jason ong. ha ha... yah yah, not talking crap for once. Mainly on relationship. Tell me something, why is it that everytime when we guys wanna commit, gals wouldn't and when we decide not to, we would be labelled as bastard, toying with their feeling? Personnally i really really tired of all these, i'm now giving myself a break from all these relationship stuff.
I mean i would love to have that "fall in love" type of feeling again, but too many events these past 2 yrs in NS has made me go against that thought. I dun wanna go into details, lets just say for me, during some of my most difficult moments, my so called "love interest" will be nowhere in sight. Not to mention some gal pals have gone MIA as well. Well... Either it means that i'm really a fucked up person, which i think i''m not or many gals doesn't have what it take to build a strong & loving relationship. Things like preserverance, determination, patients & love. Of coz there are gals out there who have all these, but they are in the arms of some lucky guys out there, i'm just not one of those guys coz one thing for sure, luck has never been on my side. What i have, what i'm, is true hard work, sheer will & determination. Good Qualities, but u can't use them on gals, they would call the police & label u a stalker!
Ha ha... Or u can just simply put it, i'm just plain damn "suay", not destined to fall in love, true love will not exist for me.
Yah yah... sure sure many of u will think i'm a loser, i'm must be damn fugly (fucking ugly) or damn fucked up to say such things. In that case too many of my camp mate shared the same fate as me. If singapore's cream of the crop fugly losers, i can't imagine the rest of the male population.
To those gals interested in my friends,
please treat them like human being, they bleed,
they can be hurt.
They can be bastards but it's by choice they choose not to be one,
so dun take that for granted.
They sacrifice their time for u,
and it's not they have nothing better to do, but to spend more time with u.
They go out of their way for u,
not because they are hard up for u, but because they only want to see u smile.
They choose to be with u,
not because u're good to them but because they love YOU!
As for me? ha ha... let's just say true love has forsaken me long ago. Now only $$ makes my world goes round. Well it can't buy me love, but it definately can fund my subsitution for love. Like shoot some pool, playing bowling, shopping, eating, going out with friends, watch movies, rent DVDs. ha ha... And fund my "love" of 5 yrs, Canoeing. Ha ha... paddles are not cheap u know!
i dunnoe why but i feel complete drained & worn out today, even though there was nothing to do. Just some minor ATEC stage 1 brief & some preparation for the christmas celebration. I had to say something about our ex OC, Cpt Jeremy Lee, so i've got some writing to do in the afternoon. Either than that, i just slept the whole afternoon away, from 1 to 3... could hardly peal myself off the bed! Woke up cursing & swearing all the way to the ATEC brief!
By the way, who the fuck put my name for the ATEC stage 1! C C B...! I'm supposed to be clearing my leave next week, i still have COS duty next week! Plus one ATEC stage 1 now, i won't be able to clear this year's leave. So what if u return me as off-days next year? If it's already so hard to go on leave, how much more do u think my chances of going for off-days are? Thank u all so much!
Maybe why i'm so drained & so pissed might be the fact that i've just returned from a 4 days outfield as 3rd Coy Enemy Admin party together with Foo JiKun, Ah Neo & Kenn Chng. One hell of a job, organise stores, collect stores, distribute stores, pack & distribute breakfast, lunch, dinner. Some more have to be some "K+something" enemy reserve on wheels. Fucking can't even get a peaceful night sleep! OMG... i going to collapse on my table now! Thankfully today got Damien to drive us out of camp to Bedok MRT station & Kenn Chng to share cab with me & jason ong from there to harbourfront NEL station. Jason ong then accompany me all the way on the train back home. Hee... lucky he had to pick up something from my place if not i think i'll have problem keeping awake.
So thank u guys for making it possible that i dun have to spend the night in camp, or worst... at a bus stop somewhere... haha...
On the way back i had a serious guy to guy talk with jason ong. ha ha... yah yah, not talking crap for once. Mainly on relationship. Tell me something, why is it that everytime when we guys wanna commit, gals wouldn't and when we decide not to, we would be labelled as bastard, toying with their feeling? Personnally i really really tired of all these, i'm now giving myself a break from all these relationship stuff.
I mean i would love to have that "fall in love" type of feeling again, but too many events these past 2 yrs in NS has made me go against that thought. I dun wanna go into details, lets just say for me, during some of my most difficult moments, my so called "love interest" will be nowhere in sight. Not to mention some gal pals have gone MIA as well. Well... Either it means that i'm really a fucked up person, which i think i''m not or many gals doesn't have what it take to build a strong & loving relationship. Things like preserverance, determination, patients & love. Of coz there are gals out there who have all these, but they are in the arms of some lucky guys out there, i'm just not one of those guys coz one thing for sure, luck has never been on my side. What i have, what i'm, is true hard work, sheer will & determination. Good Qualities, but u can't use them on gals, they would call the police & label u a stalker!
Ha ha... Or u can just simply put it, i'm just plain damn "suay", not destined to fall in love, true love will not exist for me.
Yah yah... sure sure many of u will think i'm a loser, i'm must be damn fugly (fucking ugly) or damn fucked up to say such things. In that case too many of my camp mate shared the same fate as me. If singapore's cream of the crop fugly losers, i can't imagine the rest of the male population.
To those gals interested in my friends,
please treat them like human being, they bleed,
they can be hurt.
They can be bastards but it's by choice they choose not to be one,
so dun take that for granted.
They sacrifice their time for u,
and it's not they have nothing better to do, but to spend more time with u.
They go out of their way for u,
not because they are hard up for u, but because they only want to see u smile.
They choose to be with u,
not because u're good to them but because they love YOU!
As for me? ha ha... let's just say true love has forsaken me long ago. Now only $$ makes my world goes round. Well it can't buy me love, but it definately can fund my subsitution for love. Like shoot some pool, playing bowling, shopping, eating, going out with friends, watch movies, rent DVDs. ha ha... And fund my "love" of 5 yrs, Canoeing. Ha ha... paddles are not cheap u know!
